I am prone to making apologies for people and always find a positive side even when it’s hanging by a thread, and I hang on to that thread, because I detestnegativism. If there’s anything that starts bothering me quickly, it’s people who always complain and people who never stop. We allhave our inner boundaries and they’re there to define inner places that we cherish as treasures, because there are no keys, just our permission, we decide who we are going to let in and who is staying out. And you know what? I don’t think we need a reason or give explanations, because we’re probably old enough, mature enough to do things unhingedonce in a while, simply because we feel like it. At my age, I’ ve learnt a major lesson: if there’s something that hurts my eyes, I stop looking. If it causes my ears to hurt, I stop listening, and if my heart starts suffering, I stop finding apologies.
Life requires space. As if it were a spatious wardrobe, which can either be full of old clothes no one needs, or a tidy place that even has some empty places here and there so it can accept new things. Comfort zone and our sense of security undoubtedly make it easier to have everything under control and every nook and cranny filled up, so there is no chance of feelingalone. But these are just our fears talking and they’re never right. The truth is that the universe ensureda long time ago that we’re surrounded by love and people who care about us and some of them are yet learning, how to show their emotions, so we can’t blame them, it’s their way after all, not ours. Don’t forget, criticising, smearing and gossiping won’t take us far and that’s never the way to go. The only right choice is attention, kindness, help and love, always and unconditionally, even when it’s the hardest. When you gossip about a person, remember, you’re not saying anything about them, but a whole lot about yourselves.
If you’re strong enough and you ask lovingly, the answer could surprise you. I often ran into closed doors and i asked myself, why, countless times. Then I realized there is no why, there are just actions of people who are not in tune withour frequency and it’s okay if they stay where they are. After all, the world is big enough for each of us to have our own garden of favorite things; we don’t have to understand or agree with what the neighbor grows in theirs, what’s more important is that we take care of our plants, make sure they have enough sunshine, water, kind words, and, again, enough love. Because in the end, it’s all about this: to love and be loved, to find love in every thing and create it, where we feel that there isn’t enough. I don’t think enemies exist, I would sooner say we decide for ourselves, where our affection will flourish and then follow our path, which is our perrogative. This sums up, what has been written in old books and in the heart of earth, this is what they taught us in school and at home, and in a time when freedom can seem like utopia, fighting for these inner worlds is a good thing.
There were times when I was an angry person. This anger made me see a lot of good things. It’s sort of like digging your own hole and making yourself annoyother people. I was spinning around in a circle of these emotions that wouldn’t let go of me: yesterday, today, tomorrow, always the same old thoughts and no solution worth speaking of. Then I decided I am not alone and the world is built in such a way that we only find ourselves in situations we are able to handle. We meet people to show us alternative views. This doesn’t mean we’ll agree and be blissful, but it does mean we get a chance to change and maybe become better, which is the meaning of life, after all. The only right way is to forgive. And to be grateful for all the fears, tears, sleepless nights and moments we couldn’t grasp. Once we embrace these processes, we start to see the light. And you realize it was never that far, you just looked in the wrong direction. Every person in our life is there for a reason and the reason always has something to do with love. When something bad happens to me today, I know I have many reasons to get mad at the person, but I also have many possible reasons to reward them with love.
What started out as a game turned into a life motto. I might never understand what goes on in the lives of those who cross paths with me. But I can always understand what’s going on inside ofme.
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